I wish,

I had those "I don't give a fuck attitude" towards things now a days, but truth be told I over analyze so many things you don't even know. Sigh, highschool is really stressful like no joke, I can't believe I have to go through this for four more damn years. Oh joy.. I need to keep up my grades, it's barely like the first month of school, and I have a D in english already. ERRG. And I'm guessing that my bio grade will probably drop to a C pretty soon :(. Other than that other classes are pretty easy. MHMHMH. siggh, and for boys... ECCK.

If I died tonight, how many people would care? How many people would know? How many people would moan and wish they had me back? How many people would regret being assholes? How many people would wish they loved me more? How many people would wish they loved me less?
^ Those sort of question come across my mind everyday.

I got myself a tumblr, I had it for a while, but never used it. KEKEK.
christeaa.tumblr.com

CHEGGG IT ;)

There's no time to blog nowadays.

Quick update, got my phone taken away in class. Fucking gay shiet. Dad is being a faggot once again. School's gay. I hate how you always do stuff that you know would make me go asdkjfklsdjf right in front of me.

CURRENT MOOD : FUCCK YOU WORLD.

I could use some bbbuutterflies right now. HAHAHHAHA. ;)

"If that four letter word was never heard then we be on better terms hurts to say it and not hear it in return."

If you really love me.

Finallly, I'm on my desktop, it laggs like hell though. Oh wells, it's better then nothing. Well, highschool started. OOH BOYY, is it so much more then I expected it to be. Stop giving me mixed signals, I act like I don't care but urrrgh. I wish I had that 'I don't give a fuck' attitude towards things like this, but truth be told I care waaay to much.. I'm serious, WHENEVER SOMETHING GOOD HAPPENS TO ME, IT NEVER LAST.. Yeah I know good things never last forever, but yeah. I'm starting to open up to some people.. That's good, but at the same time it's not. I still have my guard up, not gonna knock it down just yet.


ILUUUUUUHHSYDNEEEYQUEEENIELE.
just bcos you blogged about me fag, <3.

Finally,

get to go on the computer for a bit, before I leave. Yay, a lot had happened. Laptop screen is basekjaksdjf. It's so weird, how when I don't have a computer to use, I have so much on my mind, and when I do I can't think of anything to write. Wow, well tomorrow's schoool. First day of being a freshmen, hella nervous, but very very excited. I'm about to go shopping in a few with cousins, hopefully I can find what I'm trying to look for today, since yesterday there wasn't shit. I really hope tomorrow would turn out to be a goood day.

No one had ever given me the feeling of having butterflies in my stomach before, OH DARN IT, WHY IS THIS HAPPENIN TO ME );



NTS: dnltbbhdlyc. )=

I need an inspiration to always keep my head up, when things gets tough. Haven't blogged a while, bcos laptop broke :/

"It doesn’t matter what people tell you. It doesn’t matter what they might say. Sometimes you have to leave home. Sometimes, running away means you’re headed in the exact right direction."

Tell me something I didn't know would ya?