So for once, I actually mean something to you huh? I'm actually someone that you care about now right? Why couldn't you shown me this affection before, when everything happened? It just sucks that I have my pride in the way to show you that I care. Oh wells, right.

So for once, I actually mean something to you huh? I'm actually someone that you care about now right? Why couldn't you shown me this affection before, when everything happened? It just sucks that I have my pride in the way to show you that I care. Oh wells, right.

It would be better to see you try.

Maybe putting in a little effort would help to.

Why did I get so jealous when I read what she wrote for you? Why? Why did I get so jealous when you told me you miss her? I have no feelings for you anymore, but this is sad. I can't tell anyone this cause they'll tell me I'm a stupid girl. No one understands how I feel. I hate it. Why can't I not give a fuck about you? It's bugging the shit out of me.

Damn,

If you have feelings for someone, or something like that. Don't flirt with other guys, I know you're keep your option open, but damn. Have you ever thought about what the other person might feel?

Just sayin'

Why is it that I'm still feeling jealousy inside of me? I know you are not worth any of my time, but why? I can say that I'm slowly getting over you day by day. Maybe when I'm gone, you'll finally realized how much you needed me. But who am I to say on who you need and what not. Sigh,.

What did I get myself into? I'm thinking of cutting our bestfriend relationship off here, because.. it's only for the best. You say that you're not flirting with me? Really? Who's the one who asked about the whole "how many months till I blah blah" shit? Who's the one who said, "If you answer this right you'll be my girlfriend" crap? You don't ever say that to a girl, and turn around and say another thing. You say that you're going to talk to me as a normal person, haven't you always? What does that suppose to mean? Whatever, I don't blame you, you did say you were just going along to what I say, and it was my fault for believing the things you say, my words might contradict with each other, but it's just what I'm feeling. But then again.. I don't know if I should do this or not, such a dilemma. I'm not even kidding, I hate this. What am I suppose to do now? And this is why I hate getting so attached and close to someone, because if I do cut off this friendship, I know that I'll miss you. I know that I'll want to talk to you. I know that I'll miss everything that happened, I know it. What I don't know is, am I stupid for doing this? Because this is the only way that's going to help me get over you. If I act like nothing happened or whatever, you're still going to talk to me like a "normal person", which I don't even understand what the hell that's suppose to mean. But I just know it wouldn't be the same like how we used to talk, if I act like nothing happened.

Call me shallow, but that's just me. But then again, if you really did want to me to bestfriend, you would wait, you would wait till I got over this whole situation, but then again no one is making you wait. So it's your decision, and whatever you choose to do, I'll respect it. But, bye for now, best friend..

I don't know what I'm feeling, I like you..But, I don't know... You tell me to move on, but it's easier said than done..

I'm glad we talked earlier. Do I miss you? Yes. Do I like you? I don't know. What's going on with me. Youre lost in her lies, can't you see it? She's playing with you, I just don't get why you don't see it. But, you said that what we DID was cute, i don't know. Are you just saying that? I give you an vibe that I don't care, because I'm used to your words..I don't know anymore. Sigh.

Does it look like I care?

No, I do not care. Get that into your head. Yeah, I'll be here for you, but it's just ajdslkfjdslkfjasfljasdlfjad. frustrated to the maxx.

I wonder who reads my blogspot.

Hahah, since mostly everyone turned to tumblr. I wonder who still reads this.. Cause my blogger count thing is going up, woohoo.

Why am I caring so much? You're not anyone special to me, but why do I care so much about this? I shouldn't stressing over this stupid situation, but yet I still am. Why is that? I really don't get it.. I can honestly say, that I don't like you what so ever. Don't get me wrong, I still care for you, but.. Keeping my distances from you is the best thing to do for me.. I'm sorry..