Why is it that I'm still feeling jealousy inside of me? I know you are not worth any of my time, but why? I can say that I'm slowly getting over you day by day. Maybe when I'm gone, you'll finally realized how much you needed me. But who am I to say on who you need and what not. Sigh,.

What did I get myself into? I'm thinking of cutting our bestfriend relationship off here, because.. it's only for the best. You say that you're not flirting with me? Really? Who's the one who asked about the whole "how many months till I blah blah" shit? Who's the one who said, "If you answer this right you'll be my girlfriend" crap? You don't ever say that to a girl, and turn around and say another thing. You say that you're going to talk to me as a normal person, haven't you always? What does that suppose to mean? Whatever, I don't blame you, you did say you were just going along to what I say, and it was my fault for believing the things you say, my words might contradict with each other, but it's just what I'm feeling. But then again.. I don't know if I should do this or not, such a dilemma. I'm not even kidding, I hate this. What am I suppose to do now? And this is why I hate getting so attached and close to someone, because if I do cut off this friendship, I know that I'll miss you. I know that I'll want to talk to you. I know that I'll miss everything that happened, I know it. What I don't know is, am I stupid for doing this? Because this is the only way that's going to help me get over you. If I act like nothing happened or whatever, you're still going to talk to me like a "normal person", which I don't even understand what the hell that's suppose to mean. But I just know it wouldn't be the same like how we used to talk, if I act like nothing happened.

Call me shallow, but that's just me. But then again, if you really did want to me to bestfriend, you would wait, you would wait till I got over this whole situation, but then again no one is making you wait. So it's your decision, and whatever you choose to do, I'll respect it. But, bye for now, best friend..

I don't know what I'm feeling, I like you..But, I don't know... You tell me to move on, but it's easier said than done..