Is it true when people say, there's someone out there for everyone? Well, I want to meet someone who would change the way I think about guys. Someone who wouldn't mind coming to my house at 2 a.m just to see me. Someone who's not afraid to show me his feelings. Someone that I could talk from morning to night and wouldn't be bored. Someone who would actually show me he cares. Someone who would treat me like a princess. Someone who would be there to listen when I have my problems. Someone who wouldn't break our pinky promises. Someone who I could call babe/baby with out feeling awkward. Someone who would text me every minute of the day. But finally, someone who would prove to me that not all guys are assholes. That's not too much to ask for, right...? +++ someone who would take me out to eat pho at midnight :)


It's 6 a.m right now, and I can't sleep at all. Keep on thinking about what I should do next..Why can't I just let it go? Hah, isn't this wait long enough? Should I keep on pursuing something that I don't even know if it's worth my time....? Why can't someone just tell me the answer, so I can stop thinking stupid thoughts...Daaaamnn it :(. And I'm still prayin for those better days..


Haha, it's funny how I always say that I'm getting over it, but I never seem to make the effort to try to get over it. I've been reading my old blogs, and damn... I complain way too much, I say that I'm going to do something, but I don't. I really need to change the way I used to look at things, because reality is, there's always someone in a worse position than you are. I take the people who loves me for granted, and when they walk out on me, I sit and complain and regret about it... And I think about "what if's".What if I didn't do that ? What if I showed I cared more? What if this, what if that.. What if I actually tried to stop thinking about it, and actually try to move on with the future, and not living the past.


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