Cryin inside

I really hate nights like this, where I can't sleep till 4 or so. Gives me so much time to think and blog my heart out. Spent most of my day watching movies, how lame. I never go out anymore, wtf.

How do I know that I don't feel towards you anymore? I can say that I honestly don't like you. MHMHMHM, sigh my life is really predictable, seriously. I always know for a fact that when something good happens to me, the next day or so; it turns upside down and all go down the drain. So it's whatevers anymore I guess. Life never gives you what you want, but then I learned to strive for what I want. MHM, I know that I may not have it as bad as other people out there, but hey who hasn't complain about their life at one point of time? BUT AT THE MOMENT, I really can't complain about my life right now, and let's just hope to keep it that way :).

Sigh, I swear I am waay too nice, and I always let people walk over me; never having the voice to speak up. I know at times I say mean things and blahblahblah, but honestly I don't ever say what I want to say in front of people. I'll always be the first one to give in. I know that sounds stupid, but I don't know.. It's just, asjdflaksjdf.

"Love will tear us apart, but there's joy in our division.
Not to mention it's the only reason I continue living."