my reality check

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBPWuKTWtRA&feature=related

Im learning to appreciate what and who I have in my life ..

my love

R.I.P michael jackson - june 25th, 2009.
I remember when I was little, my dad and I would watch his thriller dvd thingy, and I would always be afraid to watch it . Damn, how things change so fast. It was like yesterday when I just read about him in the magazines about how horrible he dressed. People are so judgemental. Wow, he died, still shocks me...It is true, life is too fast..

Well im currently at my cousin's house sleeping overr. soo bored and hot. And she doesn't even give me water. She's already sleeping too, it's only 2:15 right now, so boreeedd. Nothing to doo. Well, I stayed home today till like 4 something, my dad came home and picked me up to take me over to grandma's house. I was so mad at him because he was bitching at me how I wouldn't get ready fast enough, but then later when we got to my grandma's house I was listening to what him and my grandma was talking about and damn, I sure regret all the stupid things I said to him. Im starting to notice that I don't appreciate anyone who's there for me...blahblahblah. now it's like 2:30 or something! I don't wanna sleep yett.urrg);

Yesterdaay and the day beore that, Angela came over. Prettty fun I guesss. I got shrimps yesterday.yumm.Well, we didn't really do anything yesterdaay besides fighting and screaming at each other. ahha, oh how she scares me when she doesn't have enough sleeep.ahah.


NTS**: Fucck it, stop caring anymore. It is what it is, I needa stop trying to fix what's broken.

my summer check list .

- record a decent youtube video
- get rid of my ugly tans
- stay clean at a party
- beat up angela.
- save up at least $50
- clean up my room
- go watch a movie at midnight in theaters
- stay on the phone till 6 a.m
- go eat boiling crab till can't eat anymore
- watch at least 5 movies in theaters

Afraid to fall

It's 2:39 a.m right now. Im tired, but somehow I don't want to sleep yet. I keep telling myself that something's going to happen soon..But it never does. This is one of the reasons why I hate having my hopes up, and it ends up all sajskjflksdf.. Today was a boring day, didn't do anything really. Just stayed home in bed. So many things /people seemed to piss me off today. Hm, I need to go out more, blaah. And I thought summer '09 would be a good one, guesss not.. I need to stop letting people walk over me, stop letting people tell me what to do. I was suppose to sleepover my cousin's house today, but didn't. What a waste of a day. I kind of stopped writing on my wall, ahah. Im suprised that I filled up my wall. 4 years later , I'll be looking back at my wall, and think about how much of a dumbass I was for doing all this stuff. Damn, thinking about it, the future scares the fuck out of me, just 4 more years then collage. Life sure pass you by fast. So this is why I gotta make the best out of it while I can, cause who knows what's going to happen tomorrow. MHM, I gotta stop thinking about the past, and just move on..

"Tomorrow may never come, give and accpet what you have today."

try

It didn't hit me till today , that my life is passing by so fast.. 1st,2nd,3rd,4th,5th,6th,7th,8th grade now it's highschool, just 4 more years then im out of schoool. So damn fast. SIGH*. I just hate how I don't know what to blog about anymoreee. FUCCKK )#@$@*#)$_!(_$ ..

Im missing you

What a boring first day of summer )': . Fuckk yesterday -___- , what a fucking way to start of my summmmer. I hope my summer days won't be like this .. stay in and do nothing )= . Hm, should I go to Santiago next year , or Northwood . I just wanna get out of garden grove some wayy. ahah. @*#$#)*@!#$#_( such "friend" you are. I don't know what to blog about anymore. blah . Hm , finally no more 8th gradee . kekekek. class of '13 :)

broken wings

I really don't like today. Fucking hate this feeeling, just when something is goood , it had to go down the drain. FML. Noo one understandsss, FUUCKKING BULLSHIT .. No one really know what goes on in my life huh? Everything's bottled up inside for to long , im going to break soon.

statue

Yesterday was a good good good day. LALALOVEE TIANA :). Everything is going good in life right now I think. 3 more days , till summer vacation! YEEEEEEAHBOYYY. Im excited. I hate waking up so early on weekend days :( .Everything is going by so fast , the schoool year is almost over. I can like remember the first day of school now there's like only 3 more days of schoool now. Fucck. soo tired.

you ain't never gotta ask

Today was an okay day, better than yesterday I guess. I'm so tired right now. Why is it that most of the guys I know have to seem to be an asshole ): .. Blaaah , well today I went to Sydney's house, her mama made us tacos :) which was really yummmy. Then we went to hang out with Andy for like an hour? Yeaah, pretty fun I guess. Then , I went home at like 5 something , and blaah . Basically boring day. 7 more days , yay .

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QUEENIEsydnee (7:54:45 PM): Lets be *

unceunce CHRISTY (7:54:48 PM): hahaha ,

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unceunce CHRISTY (7:54:57 PM): why are you so nice to me on aim

unceunce CHRISTY (7:55:03 PM): and such a butthole to me in real life );

unceunce CHRISTY (7:55:04 PM): ahahha

QUEENIEsydnee (7:56:27 PM): Hahahahha.

QUEENIEsydnee (7:56:31 PM): Cos your a butthole to me too nigga.

QUEENIEsydnee (7:56:33 PM): Your so nice on aim.

QUEENIEsydnee (7:56:34 PM): I love it.

QUEENIEsydnee (7:56:36 PM): I get so happy.

QUEENIEsydnee (7:56:37 PM): HAHA.
^^ TOUGH LOVE BBYGIRL ;)

supergirl

sigh* , I don't like today . Fuck it .

because of you .

I need to stop .. I'm starting to go in a bad directions with my life. I hate people who are so judgmental , stfu already . I need someone to be here with me right now, no one understands anymore.. Well , on the bright side of my days , it's almost summer . I hope summer '09 would be the best summer :) . Why is it so hard just to get over something..? Hahaha. Whateversss. Nothing special happened today. Alex and Kevin gave me a lecture today.. hahah . Well , nothing else , so I guess this is a short bloggg .

Closee

Today was a gooday :) . Spent some time with my PIC <3 . What we do afterschoool . hhaha , me and sydnee went to mcdonalds today , we need more days like this . Just go hangout just the two of us and just talkk about everything . Well , after that , my aunt took sydnee home and took me to jordan :D . So many people changed at wJordan . ahah , it's pretty funny how people say one thing and go do another thing . ANYWHOS, me , Angela , and Vivian then went to boiling crab . We waited till 3 for it to opeen :) . 2 pounds of shrimp , 1 cajun fries , 1 sweet potatoes fries = $27 . prettty cheaap I think :D . MHMHS , my dad came and picked us up at like 4:30issh , dropped Vivian off at her house . Then Angela went to mine . She dyed my hair today ^__^ . It's blackk noww. kekeke ;). Im sleeeeeeeeeeepy , bed time :) . What a random blog . ahhaha.

Drop the base

No one understands me besides Angela . They don't know that I actually have problems of my own, and their not the only one who has problems . People don't understand , do they ? HAAHA , my plans with Angela to get money <3 . Today was an okaay day I guesss . I hate how people think they know me so well , when they don't even have a clue about me . FUCK MY PHONE ): I can't recieve any textt . ugh .