Halloween,

Yeaaah. Siggh, I feel lazy today. Papabear is taking me out to eat in a bit, and I'm not even ready. errrg. Procrastination sucks. My days are blaaah now. Nothing intresting happens. It's just the same shit but on a different day. I miss those days where I would actually be looking forward to waking up in the morning, and going to sleep with a smile on my face. Ughh, My grades are going up, so that's good I guess, but I still have a D in spanish. Soo gaaaayy, it's like learning english all over again. FACT: Highschool is expensive. No joke. With all the clubs and classes. Pretty whacck. Anywhos, this situation that I'm in feels like a rerun all over again, no liees. I know how it's gonna end, so why am I still trying to hold on to it ? I'm gonna end up getting hurt at the end, but why am I so asdjfljsdfjasldfjsdklf about it. ERRRG, this is so gaaayy. I don't know why I'm stressing over this, get yourself together christy. askldfjskldft4ufdscjk hasidu f 24twfdshfklrsa

It's sad, how I say one thing and go do something else. I told myself that I wouldn't care about anything else, besides school from now on. But yet, here I am stressing over the same situation over again, when will I learn my lesson?

What would I do, if I didn't know you?

I gotta go get ready now, I hope today will be a good day.

" I got my laces tied, and my love locked. Cause I'm not gonna be trippin on love. "

Fuck me, I've be procrastinating on showering for the past 30 mins. FML

I'm strugglin to find a way to make it through the day,

Everything that I thought you weren't, you turned around and proved me wrong. Why is this happening to me once again ? I knew it wasn't right from the very beginning already, but I still went this way. It's so stupid, thinking that it would actually go the way I want it to be. Sigh, I need to just keep to myself now. I'm done with everything now, main focus = schoool even though I reallly hate it, but I have been slacking off so much, failing most of my classes, and the quarter is almost ending so I got to get my act together, and try to do better in schoool. I hope you don't talk to me again, I don't want anything to do with this anymore, it's going to happen sooner or later why not right now so it would be easier? Yeah..


This is one of the reasons why I love blogspot more then tumblr, I could blog about anything, and not have anyone to "like" or "reblog" my posts, yeah.. My internet is bugging the shit out of me, sjdflsjdf. *SIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH*

"There will come a day where you’ll feel like shit and want to give up on this life and everything else. When that day comes save yourself some trouble, don’t do anything, just take a nap."

That is exactly I'm going to do right now, I'm going to go take a nap. Yup.

It's funny how somethings can change right in front of your eyes without you even realizing it. I changed, and people around me did. And I think I changed for the worse, doing all these things that I do now. I didn't even notice it till now, till I looked back at what I used to blog about a year ago.. And damn, it seems like as I am getting older I learn more about reality. Life is so unpredictable, no matter how much you try to prepare for what comes at you , it won't matter, cause life has it's own games and tricks that it plays on us. I'm learning more about the world that we live in, and damn it's not as pretty as I use to think it was. Like thinking back to my elementary years, I would always to think of the world as a place where everyone would love each other, no hate or anything. And all I really use to care about was always getting my homework done, listening to my parents, and always being their perfect daughter . Now it all changed, I'm slacking in school, I don't listen to my parents, in fact I would talk back to them and have no respect for them whatsoever sometimes too. But madfucckinglove to my pparents, even though I would always say I hate them..

" No matter how painful the world may be, even though you may fall, just get back up and keep pushing forward. "

Even a complete stranger that I don't even know said happy birthday to me, and you didn't. Yeah.. Thanks father.

Haven't blogged in awhile,

I don't know what to blog about anymore. Birthday today, and I'm sitting here at home doing nothing, what a fucking great birthday.. I hope the day gets better later on at night or something, cause this is fucking sad.

I really need to keep up my grades, it's BARELy the first month of freshmen year and I'm failing like 3 classes already, FUCCK ME :(. And progress report cards come out this week, urrrg.>:( Time to get my act together, I don't wanna just mess up this year.. SIGGGH, I hope I can get my grades up soon, AJFKLSJF );

Some people just never change do they?!

Through everything,

Feelings still comes back now and then. The only one who was there for me..